Douglas Spencer (dougs) wrote,
Douglas Spencer
dougs

Waaa.

I've just spent a couple of hours sat here crying, because I don't have a Susan.

This is because earlier I walked past the Stepson's door, and his radio was sending me Coldplay: "and the tears come streaming down your face when you lose something you can't replace, when you love someone but it goes to waste, could it be worse?" There were some better lines after that, but by then it was too late.

People are going to comment and say "you should have called", and I know that and I appreciate it, but I'm not really in the market for conversation at the moment. Sometimes I am, and you'll get your phone calls, but tonight it wasn't what I needed.

Last time I heard this song was not long after the day of Susan's funeral, the same day I received my US visa, and on that occasion the line that triggered me was "when you get what you want but not what you need".

It's a good song. But I think I'll forever associate it with the events of last June, and only ever in a negative way. This is not a good thing.

Waaa.
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